WHY ARE YOU NOT IN BED?
How do you want me to sleep, when things are not going as planned?
I kept laying in bed. I don't know what to do. My life is not going the way I planned. Everything is not moving the way I expect it to move. I find it hard to sleep. I just lay in the bed for hours, overthinking.
What am I thinking? I don't know. What is the situation right now? I don't know. What is happening in my life? I just find myself overthinking. I'm not where I'm supposed to be. I don't know if the dream is too big for me to carry. It seems as if the world is about to turn against me.
It all started when I dropped out of school, in. I didn't know financial struggles would put me in a kind of situation. I heard stories about people struggling but I didn't know my case would be like that also. I was in the university with so much hope, so much joy of chasing my career and dream but it didn't work as I planned.
No one was there to support me. Although I tried my best. I did some little job but I could not be top. I just had to drop out so that it did not get worse. But thinking that dropping out might increase the pain, I didn't know. Thinking that dropping out might reduce the pain.
I thought I would be relieved financially but even though I was relieved financially,
I was still battling with the pain of giving up my career and decision. So I gave up my academic for financial relief but it was still not enough. I didn't know what might happen to me. It seems as if I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere.
For so many days now, I've been finding it hard to sleep. The thinking keeps rotating in my head. I don't know what to do right now. It is a painful situation. And I think one day I will get to it. But the suffering keeps lingering. I don't know. I'm working on myself. I believe working on myself can make it up to you.
I know they keep telling me that there is still time. I can still go back to school. But you know that feeling that when you're just there and you give up while your mates are all
thriving. I don't know what to do right now. I think one day I will get to it. But the suffering keeps lingering. I don't know.
I'm working on myself. I believe working on myself can make it up to you. I know they keep telling me that there is still time. I can still go back to school. But you know that feeling that when you're just there and you give up while your mates are all thriving.
They say we should chase the bag so I'm trying my best to get the bag then I can
see if I can make up for it but the pain still lingers and I'm still finding it hard to sleep maybe I'll keep laying in my bed and thinking I don't know.
