The Wired Thing That Gives Me Peace of Mind// Talking to my reflection through the mirror

Everyone has their own way of finding peace of mind. Some people listen to music, some take a walk, others talk to friends, or just sleep. But for me, my peace of mind comes in a way that’s a little odd, not just odd, but wired. I talk to myself in the mirror. Not just a quick talk but a full conversations, deep ones to be precise. I sit close to my mirror and talk to my reflection like I’m in a therapy session. To a point I named my reflection. I call him Mr. Jhay which is my nickname.
Yes, I know how that may sounds to you, but stay with me.

It all started one day when my mind was going through alot. Like my mind had too much going on. I felt full inside, like my thoughts were crashing into each other like traffic with no traffic light. That was the period I parted with my ex girlfriend and her though was just preoccupied in my mind. So I walked over to the mirror, looked at myself, and said, Bro, we need to talk. What the hell is wrong with you. And just like that, Mr. Jhay was born.

I started talking to Mr. Jhay (my reflection) and was complaining, reporting and counseling myself at the same time tothrough my reflection. Since then, anytime I feel like talking to myself, I will just face the mirror and start talking.

Now, Mr. Jhay isn’t just any reflection. He’s a calm and quiet person and always ready to listen. He never interrupts, he never judges, and best of all is that, it never spills my secrets. Funny right!!! Unlike real humans, who might one day accidentally tell someone else your secrets.

When I sit in front of the mirror, it’s like entering a private zone. No noise, no distractions, just me and Mr. Jhay (my reflection). I tell him everything my plans, my problems, my weird ideas😂. I’ve told him things I wouldn’t even whisper to my pillow.

Some days, I sit and confess things like as if I’m in a courtroom. And Mr. Jhay will just be there, staring back at me in silent as if to say, You’re only human, my guy.

Other times, I go into deep life talk with him. Honestly if you see the way I use to talk to my reflection through the mirror, you might wonder if I'm okay or not. I ask him questions like, Am I doing okay?, What's wrong with me?

Even though he doesn’t answer me, obviously, because he’s a mirror and not an actual therapist or any person sitting directly at me, but somehow just saying it out loud helps me alot and gives me peace. When I hear myself speak, I understand my own thoughts more clearly. It's like I'm both the speaker and the listener, two-for-one therapy.

I know it might sound strange, talking to a mirror like it’s a person. If someone walked into my room and meet me in mid-session with my reflection, they might think I’ve finally lost it. I can imagine them slowly backing out of the room like, Nope, I’m not ready for this level of madness. Especially my mom. But I don’t care oh. I’ve made peace with my wired habit and works for me.

And to be honest, Mr. Jhay is the best therapist I never paid for. No fees, no waiting rooms, no awkward How does that make you feel? questions. He just looks at me with that same wise, tired expression I always have.

The funny thing about talking to Mr. Jhay (my reflection) through the mirror is, the more I talk to him, the more I learn about myself. I start to see my own patterns, my fears, my hopes, and even the little lies I tell myself. It’s hard to hide from your own eyes when you’re staring straight into them.

So yeah, I talk to a mirror. His name is Mr. Jhay. He’s my buddy and my secret keeper. And every time I finish one of our sessions, I walk away feeling a little more in control of life. I look into the eyes of someone who knows all my secrets, and I talk.

Yes! It may be wired, it may be funny, but it brings me peace of mind and that’s more than enough for me.