It should be two weeks ago that I sent a text message to someone where I said "whatever is going on here can't continue, I am not seeking your opinion on this but am actually saying that we should stop the visiting and we could only greet when we meet on the road or anywhere" yeah I know you might be quiet lost so let me take you on a flashback to weeks or months ago. I got to know this guy through someone and just on a casual basis we started to talk and talk until talking everyday became a habit because we were fond if each other company and just for the records this talking was completely online plus the guy in question is in the same school as me just that he is three years ahead of me.

We got talking and I got to know things about him which part of them is that he's in a serious relationship but what was still baffling me is why he was still showing interest in me and asking me out, for the fact that he told me about his woman and that he still is telling me he picks interest in me is quiet contradicting but I Sha told him I wasn't interested or even in a space for any relationship, he kept on the cool vibes untill we resume school and even after that, if it was the attention I definitely got it, he cared for me like I was the only one existing, all those sweet words I definitely got it because why not men never changes, I fantasized in all these for awhile that I almost got lost in.
It was when I sat down and did some reality check that I had to call myself to order, I would do that to a fellow woman like me, I wouldn't be the other wheel, I wouldn't be the one that is been hidden and left unprotected, I wouldn't fall for those words like they were not been told to ten other ladies because if he could boldly want another relationship that means he would not be satisfied too, I just had to draw the line and get my sanity back, that was me knowing fully well that am channeling my energy into the wrong thing which might only leave me broken at the end.
When it feels wrong doing it, when you loss yourself in the process, when you become someone negatively different, when you hurt someone in the process, when you wouldn't want someone to do that same thing to you, when your peace is being put up for sale... Just know it's a big signal showing you a danger sign that you are channeling your energy into the wrong thing and at those moments where you peace is up for bargaining just see it as a signal to stop, it always comes with a price and it never ends well.
I said it was a quit because I knew I was playing with fire and it would definitely hurt me, my peace of mind is not for bargain but I don't know about you. Knowing when to stop is not a rule to follow or a book guide, it's knowing when you are not longer the original so don't give up your self for something that constantly proves not worth it.
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