When Words Fail: My Struggle with Emotions and Communication

Over time, I’ve come to realize that the way I react to situations, especially when emotions are involved, has cost me a lot more than I initially thought. I sometimes struggle with controlling my emotions, and sadly, it shows in the way I respond to people—even when they mean well.

A recent experience made this even more clear to me. We had a group assignment in school that was also going to serve as our Continuous Assessment (C.A.) test. There were three of us in the group, and we were asked to present on a particular topic. The presentation went well, and our lecturer later instructed us to add more points, include relevant pictures, insert our names, and print it out in PowerPoint format. Everything sounded simple and straightforward.

A few days later, while we were in class, one of my group members—a guy—approached me calmly and asked if I could help with placing the pictures in the right positions on the slides. Honestly, it wasn’t a big deal, but for some reason, I snapped. I lashed out at him, even though he was respectful and polite. Looking back, I don’t even know what came over me. Maybe I was just really hungry at the time, but that still doesn’t justify how I reacted.

Right after that incident, he and the other girl in our group decided they would do the assignment without me. They planned to remove my name and tell the lecturer that I didn’t participate. In the heat of the moment, I didn’t argue. I just said “okay,” without even thinking about the consequences. But when I had some quiet time to reflect, I realized I had truly messed up. It hurt more because it wasn’t about the assignment anymore—it was about how I made someone feel.

To make things right, I sent a message to the girl in our group and sincerely apologized. Then I approached the guy and told him I was sorry for how I reacted. Thankfully, he accepted my apology and assured me that he would add my name, help with placing the pictures, and get everything ready for printing. That moment taught me a big lesson—one I won’t forget easily.

Aside from that, another area I struggle with is communication. I find it hard to express myself clearly, especially in public or in group settings. Sometimes, I know exactly what I want to say, and I’m confident in my knowledge, but when it’s time to speak, the words don’t come out right. I lose my courage, my voice trembles, and I end up keeping quiet. I’ve received feedback about this during some of my past projects, and it made me realize that I seriously need to work on my communication skills and self-confidence.

I believe that been able to work on my emotions and communication would change my life in many positive ways. It would help me build stronger relationships, avoid unnecessary conflicts, and boost my confidence in academic and social settings. More importantly, being able to communicate effectively can open a lot of doors for opportunities. Sometimes, people are willing to help you or connect you with life-changing chances, but if you can’t express yourself or communicate your needs, those opportunities may slip away.

So yes, if there’s one thing I think i need to work on more about, it would definitely be my emotions . Alongside that, I’ll keep working on my communication because I know these two areas hold the key to a better, more successful, and more peaceful life.

Thanks for reading.

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