Pregnancy Journey Always Have Different Experience

I never know the meaning of motherhood untill I entered it. Anytime my mom talked about her experience during pregnancy, I always thought she was exaggerating but now I knew everything she said was true and she might not have said it all in order not to scared someone like us.

When I had my first son, it was really easy because it was just me and my husband, I was not humble by pregnancy instead it was otherwise. Sometimes when I feel like doing nothing, I will just sleep and wake up whenever I feel like, lazy around as if it means nothing but this time around the story was different, I didn't have it easy at all because it's not just me and my husband again, I have a son to take care of, someone I can't leave to go hungry. Even if I'm tired, I will try and pick up my strength just to take care of him.

I never thought I will have another baby again after two miscarriage, I was devastated by it because it was really painful and there is nothing I can do about it and nobody I can blame for it but after some month I took in again, I couldn't tell anybody for the fear of losing it again. I was scared because I don't want to pass through that same pain again. What if I had miscarriage again, this thought always fill my mind. I couldn't do any work because I thought stress caused the first and the second miscarriage and watching what I eat. I couldn't eat what I like because I don't want to tell the story that touches the heart again.

It was like that till I was seven months, my husband always tell me to forget about the painful experience but it is not easy to forget. Anytime I felt sharp pain, I always get alert but nothing like that happens. Two weeks before I gave birth, I was having contractions and it goes on for two weeks before I finally gave birth.

The journey was long but it end in praise, I'm fine and the baby is in good health. Every pregnancy journey is different and the experience is different. I tried to write about it since I gave birth but I couldn't but today, I find my strength and here I am. I will feed you more on the journey along the way, how sweet and amazing motherhood can be.

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