The debt

Seeing this week's prompt is making me remember one of my not-so-popular sayings, and that is "someone who promises me won't breathe." Now, please don't get it the other way, because I come in peace. Now I've known myself to be the kind of person who, when you promise to do something for me and you attach a specific time to it. When the time slowly approached, my whole body would become restless, and then I would be full of expectation.

Like the preachers always advise, "come with an expectant heart," I come with this same expectant heart when someone makes a promise to me. Then it gets to the time, I'd officially be an alarm clock that reminds people of things they're supposed to do at a certain time. I can disturb people for a single promise that they made to me.

A promise that was broken to me? Well, I don't remember a promise that was broken to me though because as a person I don't allow my promisers "if there is a word like that" to rest, by the time I start calling them of the promise that was made, they'd get tired and just fulfilled it "well, all these are coming from a place of imagination, so just ignore it" several promises have been broken, but then the big question is "did I feel bad?" Of course, I felt bad because when someone promises you, "I will give you some money the day after tomorrow," that has built something inside of me.

In my head, I've already spent the money that I'm expecting from that person. I've imagined myself walking majestically into that shop and purchasing those items that I need. After the whole shopping is done, I'd slide my card to pay the bills. The moment I open my eyes and notice that it was a promise and it's yet to be fulfilled, I would ensure to calm myself down so I don't increase my level of expectation.

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The following day came and the person called and was like "I'm sorry the money I was expecting didn't come again" ahhh!! You say what? At that moment I don't know the next words to utter because all my dreams have been shattered. But then I will buckle myself and move on because they say "life goes on".

But when reverse is the case: I've also broken a promise "not once" and I don't think it's twice either. And the one person that can testify to this is my younger brother "that guy" but then I still fulfil some of the promises because as humans often what we expect don't always come the way we want it to and I think that is one of the reasons they say "life is full of uncertainties".

There is always a valid reason to break a promise and it solely depends on the individual and the reason behind it. I know promises aren't meant to be broken, but then life is unpredictable, and sometimes what we expect doesn't always come the way we want.

Thanks for reading 🧡