Where I Go When I Need Me.

Seriously for me I don’t think I used to take reflection that seriously before , Life has just been moving, and I was moving with it, wake up, check my phone, scroll, reply messages, think about what next… you know that kind of routine where you are always doing something but not really pausing to think, but lately, I have been trying to do better with that.

A lot of times now, I just step away from distractions, and when I say distractions, I mean my phone especially, because let’s be real, that thing alone can carry your whole day without you realizing it, one minute you are checking one message, next thing you are deep into random videos, and before you know it, hours are gone, so what I do now sometimes is just drop my phone, put it somewhere that's far from me, and just… sit.

Not in any serious, complicated way o, I am not doing anything too deep or spiritual like that, most times, I just put on music, soft music, something calm, something that does not make me start thinking too hard but still gives me space to breathe, and then I just listen.

Not just to the music, to my own thoughts too at first it felt a bit strange. I will not lie, because when you are used to noise, silence can feel uncomfortable, My mind starts bringing up things I did not plan to think about, Random memories come up, things I have been avoiding small worries, things I did not know were bothering me.

Over time I started to appreciate those moments, vecause that is when I actually get to understand myself. I will just sit there, think about my life. Sometimes I realize, oh, this is why I have been feeling this way.. I will notice that I have been stressing about something that is not even that serious, times I just feel calm, I feel like everything is not as chaotic as it seemed before It is like giving my mind space to breathe.

Honestly quiet time has helped me more than I expected, For one I feel less overwhelmed, Life still happens problems are still there, It does not feel like everything is crashing on me at once, i have learned how to slow things down in my head to process things of just reacting immediately. Silence has really helped me to understand myself better, I can think clearly now, I feel more in control of my thoughts, I am grateful for the silence, Silence is like a friend t o me now.

It has also helped me become more intentional with how I move, Like instead of just doing things because that is what is happening, I actually think about my choices more, I reflect on my actions, my decisions, even my reactions to people, and sometimes I will just correct myself quietly like, “
Yeah, you could have handled that better.

Another thing is peace.

That simple act of staying away from noise, even if it is just for a short time, gives me this kind of peace that is hard to explain, no pressure, no expectations, just me and my thoughts, and I won’t lie, I really want to continue this habit.

I don’t do it every single day, I am a still human abeg, sometimes I get caught up again in everything, but I always find my way back to it, because once you experience that kind of calm, you will know it is something you actually need.

So yeah, reflection for me now is not something serious or stressful, It is just those small quiet moments where I step back, breathe, listen to music, and check in with myself, And honestly? I think we all need that more than we realize.

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