Still Hoping , Still Pushing

We are already in the last quarter of the year and honestly, I can not really say this year has been totally good or totally bad, for me, it has been more of a challenging year than anything else, so some days, it feels like everything is moving smoothly, and then the very next day, something just happens that makes me question everything all over again.

There are still so many things I have not achieved this year, and sometimes when I sit down and think about it, it feels like the year has been running too fast while I am just trying to catch my breath, talking about life in general, I know where I wanted to be at the beginning of the year and I know I have not gotten there yet, but at the same time, I also remind myself that life is a process, and nothing really happens overnight.

For example, with my education, I still have things pending, waiting for results, planning on my next step, and making sure I am still on track despite how slow the journey feels, then there is Hive , I had a set of Hive goals I really wanted to smash this year, and though I have been consistent, I still have not gotten there yet, sometimes I get frustrated about that, but then I look back at where I started from and I tell myself I have actually come a long way.

And of course, my kids , this one is a big part of my life, I always wanted to do more for them this year, like give them a better experience, put them in places where they can grow and feel supported, but life has a way of slowing things down sometimes. Still, I’m grateful for the little I have been able to do, even if it does not look like much, my kids are healthy, they are also learning, and they are still smiling that alone gives me hope to keep pushing forward.

When I think about the rest of 2025, I am so not in any hurry for the year to just end at all, no, not at all, you know, I am more hopeful that something good will still happen before it finally does comes to a close, I keep telling myself that one miracle can happen, one breakthrough can show up, and everything can change, I just don't want to rush into 2026 feeling like I just ran away from 2025, see I would rather end this year with at least one big testimony somehow, I mean something that will make me smile and say, “yes, it was worth it.”

So, when people ask if I am still waiting for 2026, my answer is just simple, me I am waiting for God to finish what he started in 2025, because as tough as this year has been, I still believe that it can end beautifully ,life might have in a way thrown challenges at me, but as long as I have this strong flame inside me to keep pushing, I know something good will come.

So for now, I am taking it one day at a time, still working on myself, still being hopeful, still trusting that before the clock will run out on this year, I will have a reason to look back and smile.

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