A life worth living

It is good to be a savior, and of course it is also good to be someone’s helper, which I find cool, and I can be any of this to people around me because no one knows tomorrow or what is going to happen in the next minute, so being a savior or hero to people is never a bad thing to do.

Death is one thing everyone is afraid of in this life, and despite all that, it is something everyone, including animals, will taste, even though it is not easy to die or know that you are dying soon.

Let’s now talk about cancer. This is a disease I don’t pray for my enemies because it is incurable, and seeing someone battling with their lives can break my heart as well, so I wouldn’t be happy seeing anyone dying in pain.

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Still, laying down my life for the whole world to have a cure for cancer will never cross my mind, even if I have the cure in my system or my immune system could be used to make the cure. I also have a choice as well, so why die for people who might not appreciate my sacrifice after I am gone?

Even God wished He could escape death when He saw the flashlight of death, so who am I to just lay down my precious life knowing that I would die and wouldn’t exist anymore? What about the pain I would cause my family? What about my husband and children? Will they be happy I am about to die to save people I don’t know or people who don’t know me?

Well, I have lived long enough to understand how complex people can be and how cruel the world itself is as well. I wouldn’t lie by saying I am going to become a lab rat for the world to get a cancer cure because I can’t and I won’t dare to do so because I also have a family who would get hurt seeing me dead. The only thing I could do willingly without anyone getting hurt is donating blood if it can be used for the cure, anything aside from that count me out.

I have watched so many movies where someone is being used as a lab rat to save the world, and at the end the person dies for nothing because the government didn’t make the cure spread as the person that sacrificed himself wished; instead, they are keeping the cure for their generation.

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What if that is the case? If I lay down my life for people to be saved, here in my country government doesn’t value citizens, and trust me when I say they won’t appreciate the sacrifices, and I am sure the cure wouldn’t reach everyone just because they would keep it for themselves and their families alone, so what is the point of dying?

Well, we all are different, and we think differently as well, so this is me. I can never die for anyone, not even my country or the world. Some people that died during an armless protest some years back just to tell the government to bring down the cost of living in the country are now forgotten, so why would I die knowing that I will also be forgotten so soon and everyone will go back to their normal lives enjoying themselves while I might be regretting it in Heaven and my family will be in a lifetime of sadness? I can’t let that happen, and I am sorry that I couldn’t lie about it.