It's time to chase again

It says that life is beautiful, and a person needs the right mindset to enjoy that beauty as it's impossible to enjoy life without it. A positive mindset allows a person to understand the beauty of life even in struggling situations. Beyond that, there are awesome activities we genuinely love to do, which can make us happy and bring joy to our lives. Depending on the person, those activities differ, and that's understandable because everyone has the power to think differently and is unique. What things or activities bring joy to your life? Are you curious to know my thoughts?

In my case, unemployment has brought me joy. Shocked? Let me explain. I finished my postgraduate degree approximately six months ago. Most students immediately rush to find a job, but I didn't. In the first few months, I decided to take a break from career-related pursuits, and it's been extended to six months already. In the last few months, I wasn't worried about finding a job—in fact, I didn't submit my CV to any company. You may wonder why, and the reason is simple: I'm enjoying my life. I was always serious about my studies and career. I was so serious that I sacrificed many things, mostly good moments of my life. Sometimes I feel bad thinking about it, even though from a rational perspective it's not a loss.

In the last six months, I've been spoiling myself by watching dramas, anime, and doing other fun activities. In that time, there was nothing worthy enough to stress me out. I'm in a carefree mood and not worried about finding a job or thinking about the future. I'm sure nobody expected such action from me, as I always secured the top position in my academic career and, in others' eyes, I'm a more mature person for my age. It's natural for them to have high expectations of me, but this time I didn't let their expectations become a burden. I was trying my best to keep my mind clear-headed because that's very useful for making decisions.

Additionally, I'm staying with my family and enjoying breakfast, lunch, and dinner with all family members. That's something I really cherish, and I feel it's very important for strengthening family bonds. If I start a job, I may not get the chance to stay in the same city, and the chances of that are fairly high. I don't want to go far from my family, and spending time with them, especially with my siblings, is very important to me.

Financial problems seem to be the real issue at this stage, but I can do tutoring, which gives me a handsome amount each month—even higher than an average job holder earns. That's why I can stay in my current situation if I want. Being officially unemployed, I'm enjoying my life without any worries. I wish I could enjoy my whole life this way.

But the fact is I won't prolong it. I've already turned down several career-related opportunities. Even if I'm happy, I won't follow through because it would be a waste of my knowledge and the efforts I've made throughout my life for my career. I don't want my efforts to go in vain. Additionally, I feel I need to find a job at least for my parents, as they'll feel relieved if I get one, thinking I'm getting settled. This is my last month of enjoying life this way. I'm quite determined this time, and I'm going to end the joyful life I've been enjoying for the last six months. I've already started shortlisting companies to apply to, and I'll submit my CV one by one. I know it's not going to be easy to find a job, but from now on, I'm going to try, and as long as I keep trying, I believe I'll make it happen. So even if I'm still spending a joyful life, I don't wish to prolong it considering my future.