Embracing the flow

Source

This year started with gratitude for the friends I met on Hive through the Neoxian City and DreemPort Discord server.

Moving on, I had a lot of expectations this year, especially as regards my Hive journey. I can't quite place it, but somewhere around January or so, I had seen a post documenting the Hive statistics of various Hiveans who made a post every day for the last 365 days.

I went through the comment and could feel the excitement from the people mentioned. It was like completing a herculean task and emerging victorious.
Well, before the post I had listened to @amiegeoffrey speak on PYPT about her Hive accomplishments, and I felt wow! That could be me. Aside from being amongst those who posted every day for the last 365 days, Amie also smashed other Hive goals in terms of her HP and HBD savings.

I must confess that Amie was one of the reasons I actually decided to take my hive journey seriously because I was indeed motivated. So I took action and started posting daily for 6 months, but then, like it was stated in the Bible, man proposes and God disposes.
The first 6 months were me seeing through with my Hive goal of achieving the 365-day batch from Hivebuzz, but quite unfortunately, on the 7th month, my reality became so overwhelming that I couldn't keep up with my set Hive goals.

On the day that I missed my streak, I had woken up at exactly 1:10 am, and my heart sank. I was devastated, and the best coping mechanism that came to mind was to cry about it on the city's Discord. An action that proved quite effective, as I got the needed moral support from friends.

I was quick to forget about my failed attempts at getting the buzzing bee batch for the year because I got so occupied with activities that sometimes I go days without posting on Hive. This was me, though 6 months earlier I was posting twice every once in a while. Regardless, I did stop beating myself up and resolved to try again next year, hoping that I can manage my activities better to be able to accommodate both lives.

Aside from my Hive experiences, both the good, the bad, and the ugly, I have gone through the better part of the year with grace despite not having anything particular planned out. I am more of the go-with-the-flow kind of girl, and this year was not any different.

Well, aside from my determination with Hive, of course. Like the saying goes, it's never over unless it actually is. So for the remaining months, I look forward to greater days, as it takes seconds for one's life to change from one level to another, and this was the conversation I had with a friend who was lamenting feeling stuck despite all his efforts.

I had urged him to keep trying because really he never would know the day or the seconds that everything will just click for him, and it becomes really heart wrenching if he quits when he's just at the entrance of his breakthrough.

I am not where I want to be, I do not even think that I am close but you see one thing that keeps me going is the thought that no matter what, I must always win. It doesn't really matter how long it takes but you see when the victory eventually happens? That's all people would see because it's all that is relevant. Nobody really pays attention to behind the scene that almost unalived you and this is why we do not always look like what we've been through.