The Love and Pain I Carry on Your Birthday

Today I want to share a few thoughts on my non-biological mother's birthday. I was not able to greet her personally. I only sent my birthday greeting through one of our relatives because until now, we still don't have communication with each other.

To be honest, there are times when I wonder why life turned out this way. Maybe this is one of the realities of being adopted. Sometimes it hurts, and sometimes I feel sad about the things that can no longer be changed. There are moments when I regret some parts of my past, but I also know that looking back will not bring those days back. Life keeps moving forward whether we/I like it or not.

Even with everything that happened, I still want to greet her a happy birthday. I may not always understand everything, but I am still thankful to her. Without her, I would not be here today. The life I have now may not be perfect, but it is still a life worth being grateful for. Like many people, I also experience many ups and downs, but I continue doing my best for my family.

Looking at my children reminds me of how important family is. I am especially thankful for my daughter. She is not only a loving sister to her younger siblings, but sometimes she also acts like a second mother to them. She helps me in many ways without being asked. Seeing her care for her brothers and sisters makes my heart happy.

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There are days when problems become too heavy. Sometimes when my husband and I argue, I feel like running away for a while. But then I realize I have nowhere else to go. There are moments when I feel sorry for myself because I do not have the kind of family support that others have. Still, whenever I look at my children, I remember why I keep going.

Maybe I was left behind before, but I never want my children to feel that kind of pain. No matter how difficult life becomes, I will always choose to stay with them, love them, and guide them. They are my greatest blessing and my reason to keep moving forward.

To my mom Happy Birthday, Mama. I hope you are healthy, happy, and at peace wherever you are.

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