Pain In The Most Beautiful Gift Of Life

It's been a while my dear @asean.hive family. I was struggling with the itchiness of my skin. In the three years I've been here, I've always talked about the flood in our house. This time I think my thighs already gave up! Last year it was the itchy and painful athlete's foot. But I learned to use baby oil and it really prevents it from spreading. But I didn't expect the consequence would be like these hard! I already saw these through my kids but I didn't expect they could handle it well better than me.

It took me an hour to calm down! All I can do is to take turns scratching them both. I put alcohol and put it in, it was painful! But it helped me calm down. I couldn't put any ointment or cream, because I'll be soaking in flood again and again. All we can do is to wait for the flood to leave us. Last year it was December when our house dries. I beg the universe that it would be a lot earlier because this is the worst itchiness I ever had! My skin was already dry before but it's now drier. I'm shy to take Ria to school, but her elder siblings are always there to help me.

Before we left my in-laws house I asked my husband, where did he want to live? He chose our flooded house and I didn't expect his answer would be that. Our house is just the size of their kitchen and dirty kitchen. It's also dry on the first floor and also has a second floor when a big flood comes around. I don't know if he wants the privacy or the feeling of being free from anything! This year I was ready to stay in their house but I didn't tell him what was inside my mind. I just follow what he said.

Sometimes I wanted to give up but I just found myself asking how to give up! Then I saw the selfies of my kids, they are the reason why I didn't want to give up. If our life is hard for now, I know doors will be open for my kids and our will be change for the better.

Thank you for reading

@usagigallardo015