Maturation process

Hello hivers friends wherever you are I'm sitting in front of my laptop and I'm very annoyed because my wifi can't connect and open the internet, very annoyed when I want to buy data on the internet I can't because I use the internet to make transactions. Why is this situation often like this because it's always raining at the end of every year and indeed Christmas and New Year's often rain in my area. That's what causes the weather to be very bad and causes my wifi connection to be bad.

I have to be patient a little longer because I really can't control the changing weather beyond my ability to make all this happen. Today, thank God, went well because today, exactly last night, I experienced a broken heart. I felt abandoned by someone I really expected to come to my house. I was very stupid to believe the stupid words he said. I was very stupid to be a woman. irresponsible human. Why should I why not someone else? Maybe God wants to make me mature but it hurts so much to be dumped by the person we really hoped for. I'm tired of doing all of this, I will surrender to whatever my God's decision, one day I will be maximal in being a good person, but I will still be in the wrong person. Whatever it is, I will try, hopefully one day I will reap the results, ammin.

Incidentally I went to the market with my mother and I took some photos, there is a mask that is very cute and I want to wear it when I get into trouble. ridiculous but indeed this is very useful for entertaining ourselves when we really feel burdened, I remember something that turned out to be a celebration of breaking up with an ex-boyfriend last December 2021 and now it's December 2022. I'm very sad when I remember the incident that separated us. I was so depressed then but I just pray now that he is happy with his new girlfriend. why do I still remember it because indeed 2 years for a courtship is not for a moment we have recognized each other's weaknesses. but no need to regret everything will be replaced with something better I believe that.

it turns out that it really sucks because he still chooses the woman he was having an affair with until now, but I have to keep praying for him because my mother advised me that whoever hurts us you pray for the good ones, we don't need to repay them, it's enough that Allah alone will judge them. I have until now done what my mother ordered, I also don't want the person I once loved to live an unhappy life. I want him to be happy with his family someday. enough for me to suffer by all that he caused.

I took the photo at the traditional market dear, when I took my mother because she had something to buy, I just waited for her to finish and sat in one of the stalls.

@realitavshaluan