NO MORE RUNNING

These past few weeks of my life have been different. A good kind of different. I have been spending time doing things that aren’t usually what I’ll want to spend my time doing. It feels overwhelming sometimes, especially when I remember that I can choose to do something else rather than doing what I’m currently doing now. At first, I thought it was the easiest option, but the more I continue in this path, the better I realize how hard it is. The interesting part of it all is that I love this challenge, and that’s because one thing is certain: this challenge is going to make me a better version of myself.

It will help me understand my weaknesses more and focus more on my strengths rather than worrying about the things that I’m not yet. And while I’m at it, I will also have the opportunity to find strength in my weaknesses. I have always loved challenges; they help me want to do better. I do try to run away sometimes, but that’s just my usual response when anything feels hard for me. But by the grace of God, I try not to give up completely because I know running away will only make me comfortable and stagnant.

This year, like I mentioned in a past post, will be a year of so many changes for me. I’m choosing to stay even when it is so hard and unbearable, but my prayer is I won’t stay in things that isn’t God’s plan for me, and that’s why I always pray He leads me because I don’t plan to give up on anything especially because it is hard and uncomfortable. I’m going to get to the end and get a result. Not just a result—a good result. I feel like I have more clarity of what I want from and in life, and I don’t see why I have to let anything or anyone stop me from achieving my dreams.

And for some reasons, I believe this year is that year for grooming, and I just pray I don’t stay down anytime I fall down. I’ll fall. I know I will, but I hope to get myself back on track as soon as possible. I’m going to make some hard decisions during this time of grooming, and they may be perfect, but I know I can also get it wrong too. Honestly, I’m hoping I get it wrong because that way, you have more people trying to help you to get it right. But it will only make more sense if I’m completely open to criticism and advice without taking offense from any, even when I can.

Seeing how I embrace corrections and criticism makes me happy about whatever is going on with me. Because some years back, I’ll always run away from hearing corrections because I feel people are just being too much, but now that I have come to accept the fact that I need those people in my life, I appreciate them better now. Hearing what others have to say about the things I do and how I do them has helped me become wiser and better. So I really don’t mind having more people correcting me even here on Hive. I want to be better, and honestly, I have failed at doing it on my own. I need as much help as I can get.

My heart goes out to everyone that has tried to correct me about anything because you all are part of the reasons why I made it this far and why I’m who I’m becoming today. I know I was reckless sometimes with my words because I was finding it hard to accept the corrections, but I’m grateful to those that were patient with me to finally grasp what they want me to understand.

I’m becoming a different me because I have recognized the benefits of the people in my life. I always remind myself of how blessed I am whenever I see someone always trying to tell me about something over and over. They see something that I don’t see and try to make me understand things patiently with love and not to condemn me.

Thank you for reading through. 💜