The Hard Truth About Outgrowing Your Old Life

The first prompt resonated with me so much that I couldn't hold myself from sharing my experience about it. Life can be so full of surprises with what it gives because the change I experienced in just less than a year is everything above all the small changes I've had all my life.

I can't even remember when it began but I started to feel this pull in my heart that kept forcing me to let go of so much than I can even mention here, all at once. The reason was very clear, they no longer fit who I was becoming but my stubborn heart fought hard and long against it.

At that point, every video, every conversation and even images I saw, spoke against the things I was holding on to that needed me to let go of. I'm sure you'd understand why I found it hard to let go when I share what these were. In a brief sentence, it was a pull to let go of my whole life.

Yeah! That sounds like a bit of an over exaggeration but let me explain deeper... The first pull started with the mindset I had. It was a mindset that relied totally on gaining validation or permission to be who I should be, to get things done. At a point, I wanted permission to not live.

I mean, to not live the life I was desiring in my heart to live, a life that obviously would be judged and so I wanted to escape from that thought. That kept me clinging unto a mindset that life was forcing me to let go of. I've gotten past that stage but it lingers sometimes till I get hold of it.

Because I started to accept the change of mindset towards life, my old habits started to not fit in. Since my mind had changed, I began to spot habits that I got out of the need to be accepted, I saw how I relied on bad habits to feel emotional stability which never really worked.

They may not be seen as really bad habits like being addicted to sugar or drugs but they were slowly killing my self confidence and beliefs than I realized until I accepted the mindset change. Now, I'm not only aware of the habits my present life don't need, I'm getting rid of them one by one.

Even the kind of clothes my body in the present mindset want to wear changed almost completely, it's really been a dramatic experience for me because it got to a point where I took my time to go through my wardrobe and let go of a lot of wears that really didn't fit my present self.

It was hard at first, especially confusing because I've been living that way all my life, breaking out of it felt so weird and almost impossible but I met people who helped me gain clarity better, I listened to people who have been there before and I implemented what I learned as much as I could. Recently, I created a habit tracker for me.