Experience with me; things that makes me overthink

Would you consider yourself an overthinker or pretty laid back whrn it comes to things? Share with us an event in your life that made you overthink or tested your ability to be laid back

I want to share my experience of the things that makes me overthinked and almost lost hope in life. My first laid back experience was losing my lovely dad to the land of darkness a place where you go and never returned. Let me take a deep breath (sighing) since 2013 i lost my dad it really hurt me that i can't let go of him every time i think of him

he was a role model to me and my siblings, kind-hearted an hardworking he always shower us with plethora of love and care including my mom. On a Sunday evening he prepared to leave the house to the family compound where he will meet his brothers so that they will leave together to the market to purchase their goods mentioned a bag of cassava flakes, onions and tuber of yams that was his the nature of his business he deals in together with his two brothers on their ways coming back on Monday evening they had a fetal accident that claimed the precious life of my dad

when the news was broke to my mom she broke down and couldn't hold herself any longer. That situation make me overthink and at the other side i had a goal to achieve but today my mom made it possible for me to achieve my dreams gradually

another was losing my little baby sister {2018) she was feverish and feeling not well Everytime and was rushed to the hospital onlt to confirmed that she lost her breathe i became losing hope losing my love ones to the cold hands of death wss frustrating but i had to move on

initially this is the most overthinked event i have been praying so hard to succeed and is really working is my mom i am an auxiliary nurse my mom has been complaining recently about her health since last two years but at then i wasn't in this field i thought it eas a minor ailments until now i am an auxiliary nurse. One day she called me on phone we talked happily and strong but some minutes after i received a call that my mom is having severe pain in her abdomen which make me laud back and devastated but i was to manage the feelings until she was brought to my resident on the 27th January 2025 which i took her for abdominal and pelvis scan the next day ànd was confirmed having abdominal asepsis and etopic pregnancy that opted for a complete caesaran section with the sum of #350,000 three hundred and fifty thousand maira but the surgery was successfully done on the 29th January 2025(Wednesday) i paid 150,000 one hundred and fifty thousand naira remaining #200,000 two hundred thousand naira balance to complete the payment

Her groceries was made possible by using @spendhbd for my transactions and payment it really gladden my heart that some of my bills is less cut of by using spendhbd to spend and earn
Moral lessons
I have learnt to be strong and consider the fact that we all are going to leave this world but not with untimely death and pray for us all that we aren't loosing our loves one to premature death. Although my strength was tested my trust for my love ones to erased but it took me some days vut build my ability trust and hope to succeed and conquer my weakness. Thanks everyone for your time and votes