I was broken, it's gone

I've only been hearing about people having miscarriage but I never know how it feels because I've never go through it before, I only felt pity for those who have pass through such an ordeal because they said miscarriage is one of the saddest thing in woman's life.

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You know as a young lady, it is important to have baby at our prime in order to avoid some child birth complications. We decided to give our baby a sibling to play with but everything went down the drain before I know it, it was just a month and some weeks and it's gone.

I was feeling pain in my lower abdomen and also back pain, I think taking pain relief drug will solve it but not knowing that the baby is at risk. I was trying to get some night rest last night when I felt something broken in me and when I checked it I saw blood.

I was shocked because I don't know what is happening, I rushed to the bathroom and that is when I know I have lost my baby but I still don't want to let go because I can't believe I'm losing the baby I was eager to see. I was so devastated and was hoping for a miracle to happen.

I couldn't sleep throughout the night. In the morning I decided to visit the hospital but the rain wouldn't stop falling and I think the rain want to bring some miracle but I waited but seen none other than an excruciating pain. I boiled water and started drinking hot water to lessen the pain before the rain stop.

When the rain stopped, we are preparing to go to the hospital when I felt something like labor water broken, immediately after that what have been disturbing me follows. I felt relieved immediately but when I saw the small creature that was growing but couldn't survive for nine months, I couldn't hold my tears.

I was broken beyond what words can express but what can I do, it is not meant to be so I have to accept it like that. I only thank God for my life because since there is life, there is definitely hope.

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