An advice that saw me through the time of despair..

Life can be so many things, there is a time of joy, sadness, happiness confusion, or even numbness sometimes, that moment we can't really describe what we feel exactly, I'm sure we've all felt most of these emotions, if not all.

There was a time in my life when I was filled with so much sadness and fell into depression, the cause was due to the ill health of my first child, it is one thing to know the cause of a sickness and take the right treatment to seek healing, but the reverse was the case then, the first hospital we frequented constantly billed us without any sympathy of where the money was coming from, of course as parent, we were desperate to see our child get better, the worst part was after all this billing and the time spent there, still, there wasn't any improvement, I felt bad, I kept asking myself if I was the worst kind of mother even though I know I do my best to give my daughter the best care, why does she have to suffer at such a little age, she was barely one year old at the time.

I cried days and nights, feeling hopeless, and was always asking God why would He bless us with a child and allow us to pass through this pain, with the blessing he gave us. Do you know that when faced with trials, you get people who appear to be angels give you advice and in your broken state if care is not taken, you might easily fall for the wrong advice, in my case, I remember a woman whose daughter was in the same ward as mine but with a minor ailment, she became close to me and knew all about what I passed through, one day she advised that I stop crying and should learn to be strong emotionally and become prayerful instead that "God cannot allow me to be tempted beyond my capacity" it sounded strange at first, how do expect me to be strong with a sick child, thinking about it again, I've been depressed and down cast and it didn't solve anything, so I took to her advice, gathered the courage to stay strong for my child, I stopped crying and started using the time to pray instead and for the first time in months, I felt peace within me and was convinced that nothing bad would happen to my child, all the fears I had frizzled away, from that moment, some event took place which helped move my daughter to another hospital,I have written about these event in sone of my previous blog, she was diagnosed and given the right treatment and till date, we've never had any reason for her to be admitted in the hospital, and I also don't joke the place of prayers in my life, i've been comforted so many times and don't see myself stopping soon.

As for the stranger I met in the hospital, we've lost communication, but her words of advice have so far held a strong place in my heart.

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