My excitement and deepest fears of the future//Wk202

Hello everyone, I welcome you to my blog. It is with great delight I am participating in this week's topic about excitement and fears of the future.

We all have things that makes us feel enthusiastic about the future and some things that creates mixed feelings in us.

My excitement about the future is knowing fully well that I am making efforts to be successful so I can be comfortable,doing what I love and trying to be independent, some days it can be overwhelming, I could still remember discussing with my friend when I was having this strange feeling of not being enough I was bothered and thinking I have not done my best, I started thinking a lot about what the future holds, what is the way forward, and all she told me was to be calm and it is nothing to worry about. Her words gave me a sigh of relief, thinking too much about the future brings fears, what scares me most about the future is knowing nothing is permanent, losing loved ones.

Last year December I lost someone close to me, the fact that we still talked a day before he died left me dumbfounded, he is like a father to me and we are very close, someone I could share my thoughts with and his advices always come at the right time. His death made me fully understand there are somethings we don't have power to control. The deepest fears I have about the future is losing loved ones to death. We all have this imagination of seeing our loved ones with us in the future, but anything can happen and this scares me a lot, that anybody can be gone within a twinkle of an eye.

**Thanks to @galenkp for the wonderful topic

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