Through all, we live

There was this one day I was so excited to have the last book in my favorite series released. And when eventually it was released, it was so unsatisfying. I was so disappointed that I started crying when I found out that things weren't turning out happily the way I envisaged. So, after crying under a blanket for hours, I decided to take a walk around my environment. I went on a walk. And that evening, the sunset was so beautiful, I sat down to admire it. While sitting, I admired and let the beauty of my surroundings sink in. I took pictures of the sun while at it and when I got back to my room, my earlier sadness waning, I sat down to look at the pictures.

At that moment, I cried again at how ethereal the pictures appeared? Although this time, the tears were as a result of how relieved I felt at seeing the images. I went about the rest of my day cheerfully, chipping in here and there at anything my roommates said. My roommates, not knowing how it felt to be weighed down by something you expected so much from, especially if said thing is a book, they assumed it was just one of those girly days. But it wasn't.

I can't begin to count how many times I've been surrounded by beautiful flowers, seen sunsets, taken walks on a full moon and experienced joy buildup from deep within. Being around nature makes everything about the present soulful. And I love it.

One other thing that makes me happy is being around my friends and seeing them happy. Being surrounded by people living and savouring the moment, pleases me so much. Seeing them laugh, seeing them crack jokes, seeing them win makes me happy. Years back, when I was in secondary school, I looked forward to going to school every morning, meeting my classmates, sharing laughter so intense, we teared up in the midst of it all. When I was about graduating, having been told how 'one man to himself' the university was, I wondered if I was going to experience the joys that came with laughing with people like I did back then. But now, with the friendships and connections I've built, I really had nothing to worry about back then.

I find joy in being around relationships I have, online and offline. I find joy in sharing parts of my life with them. I find joy in seeing them win and sharing in the joy that comes with winning. Even where I work currently, I've found people that make me happy just by talking to them that I now look forward to going to work and being around them.

When I saw the #KISS prompt for this week, this third thing I'm about to mention was the first to come to my mind. When I set goals, and set steps I intend to take to achieve the goals, I love seeing myself actually take those steps and swing into action. Even when I don't achieve set goals like I had envisaged, the fact that I made effort and took steps to achieving it, makes me really happy.

I know it might sound weird to some people but making effort makes me happy and even when the dreadful feeling of not achieving in the end pokes it's head, I'm happy with the fact that I'm making effort towards it and none of those efforts will serve as a waste. If not now, they'll be of good use later. I love these for me.

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