Overwhelming.

last week

You don't know how it gets until you feel it or get stuck in that moment. If someone had said it, answers would have come on ways to tackle whatever it is until it is at your doorstep and the feeling gets crazy.

The mind goes on a frenzy, and you'd roll your eyes deeply at the clock. Who the hell thought 24 hours a day was enough when they could have multiplied, did addition, and still multiple the result. The heart beats faster on the need to get things done on time and looking at the clock to how long is legs till the day is over spikes up every vein in the body like you are on cocaine.

That's exactly how I felt today. Since yesterday was solely a day off to get things ahead of the next month and prepare for traveling this month, I wasn't able to do as much as I'd love to do online. My waist seems breakable, my legs ache, and my fingers become elastic. That's how tired I was after moving my legs here and there to get in place.

I had known there would be a lot to do today despite the ache I still felt when I woke up, but I was determined to get yesterday's work off my chat. I cooked, cleaned, and ate. But I couldn't begin work immediately as I had intended. The need for sleep sets in. I wanted to ignore… yeah, I had every reason to fight off the sleep, but just the thought of them made my body rebel against me. Without any words, I found myself drifting off to slumberland with no guardian.

My mind was not asleep. It kept on reminding me of the work that needed to be done as I kept tossing around like a flour roller. I had to calm my mind a bit to allow me to sleep, and I am glad I did rest a bit. I woke up with insane energy and got to work immediately. I moved from one to another until I checked my task and saw I still had a long way to go. If I am being sincere to myself, I'd admit I can't even finish up the work. And that was when the feeling came. I was overwhelmed!

It was at this moment that I hurried to youtube to listen to “Overwhelmed” by Royal and the serpent.

The lyrics sunk in like the music composer had me in mind when writing the song. It was more than inspiration. It fueled my guts, and with that, I had a plan carved out. To finish yesterday's workload, I knew I couldn't be working straight on without a pause. Doing that would get me overwhelmed. So, I sorted out a break in between as I worked. Watch a series, go back to work, listen to more songs on YouTube, and go back to work without checking the time.

I even got to listen to more songs that calmed my heart more, and I wasn't surprised. They were traditional songs aimed at doing that.