I am "Me"

If this question was asked some years back I would have replied with a different answer because back then I was not too comfortable with my body, I can remember when people will be saying all sorts of thing about me and what made it worst is the fact that they will be saying it in my presence without the thought of getting me upset or a little bit annoyed with whatever was being said.

Sometimes when I get home, I will sit down and start reminiscing on those words that were said. Then I will look at myself in the mirror and wish for a perfect body. At that moment, the only thing that will roam in my head is the image of those perfect features that were missing in my body, and I will feel so less of myself to the point that I will stop walking around the premises.

And then you know how mothers would like to lift your mood with their different body stories, I don't know but I feel like my mother knows what I was going through that moment, so she would walk up to me and be like "do you know when I was your age I had this your same stature" well I started adding some weight when I started giving birth so don't let anyone tell you anything terrible about your body. Your body is home and is the only one you will ever live in, so be comfortable in it, my love.

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After hearing those words from my mother, something started enveloping inside me, or you can call it "confidence." I felt I'd built a new armor in my body, I was free and relieved. So comfortable in my body like I didn't bother about what people were saying behind or in front of me. Because I know I was beautifully and wonderfully made by the Almighty, and other people's opinions about me don't count and matter.

You know what my people from my part of the world always do, they would look at your body sometimes and be like "you will get fat, oh" now those words would make me blush like butterflies are dancing in my stomach. That smile on my face would look so contagious that people would start noticing and be like "what is happening," but then I won't say anything, but just walk to my final destination.

Currently, I've added a little, and I don't feel like adding further "no reasons" ooh, I think there is one, I don't want to get too fat and start keeping myself busy on how to lose weight again. I feel so comfortable in my body. My body is home and I feel so blessed having it.

Right now, I've grown to accept my body for the features I have, and besides, we won't be attracted to everyone around. We will only be attracted to the right people who appreciate our body for what it is and possess. I don't let anyone tell me I'm not perfect, I say it to myself every day that I'm the real definition of perfection.

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