When I took a pause
In a world filled with unending distractions, this prompt actually kicked off something in me. I had to actually pause and ask myself, when last have I reflected or had time to meditate.
Meditation a beautiful practice that we rarely practice. I’ve had so much about meditation and its usefulness to our mind and making achievements. In our church daily devotional that we used to read and study the Bible, there are days it’s required for us to meditate and there are topics given to meditate on.
I am not proud to say that I haven’t been faithful with the meditation aspect. Sometimes we are just busy chasing things that we are caught up in a web of activities that we rarely have time to pause and think or look inwards. If only we are honest to ourselves, we find that this part is lacking a lot and I am a victim.
Lately, I have been doing a lot of reflections. I’ve had moments when I had to pause and ask myself some questions. For example this year has really been a lot for me already. The year started with a break in my relationship and I spent some good week’s mourning the breakup but in a moment of just going silent and reflecting on the past happenings, I suddenly saw a light that I missed.
When I had this breakup, I was saying that it’s his loss. Well, at a moment of reflecting on all that has happened so far, my eyes were opened to see that it’s not about putting it to the other person. It was my salvation and not his loss.
Well, sometimes you can be in relationships that you don’t even realize is toxic for you. The red flags are here and there but you keep making excuses hoping that it would work but that breakup was a deliverance for me. I just saw that I would have really suffered in that relationship of it had continued. A broken relationship is better than a broken marriage.
Well, I didn’t see all this until I had time to reflect on all that happened. I also reflected on the part I think I must have missed it or done somethings I wasn’t supposed to do and I have learnt my lessons to do better next time. But something hit me again in these reflection times and that made me feel so bad.
I was feeling bad because I had lost so much time. I spent weeks crying, locking myself up, feeling bad and abandoned my business. I stopped my content creation and was just business mourning the loss of the relationship. Well, that happens when you love someone.
But I felt so bad I had to pause my life all because of a bad breakup. I felt bad that I was mourning my deliverance cos that was actually God delivering me from a life time regret. In my time of reflection, I had to tell myself the truth and pick up the pieces of my life where I had left them.
I have decided to go back to all the things that I had abandoned and to start living again. It’s already the second quarter of the year and April is turning into May. I have so much to do and I am just about to begin for the year. Well, I am back that I am back and better. I’ve learnt my lessons and ready to move ahead. All thanks to some quiet moments of having to pause and do some life reflections.
Having time to reflect on things around me has been very helpful to me lately and has made me see things from better perspective. I do hope to continue with it more often.
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