December depressed 100%

Hi, friend.
I want a vacation. I was at a falling point in my life. today I am very sad. I want a vacation to a beautiful place like that picture. Why are there so many evil people in this world? why did he have the heart to cheat everyone and i was very stressed when my money was lost in the app. I'm very confused now and plus my twitter account was hacked by someone. why today hurts so much I want to cry but can't.

I really want to meet good people. where are they Why do you always meet bad people? what was my mistake and sin so that my way of life got like this. being an adult is not easy. I hurt myself with my behavior. I want to overflow with tears but why can't I cry and only tightness in my chest?

strengthen me ya Allah. I'm no longer writing, here I'm venting and this is very real and really happened to me. don't trust other people or apps. I just pray that my sleeping hours are regular, my eyes are healthy and my heart is happy. hopefully this will be part of the lesson in my time. too bad I lost $100 in one minute.

even though it is very difficult to collect that kind of money for me who is not currently working. Sometimes why do I always think about the material? because I'm not a hypocrite with material we can spend whatever we want and can make us happy.

and now I will depend on my God penniless. maybe i can live it? what my parents said/ so far I haven't told them.

I'm sick with all of this, I want to be happy and have a vacation in a beautiful place like that photo. are you feeling happy today? Will you share the happiness with me even a little bit? I'm very down and depressed.

I have God, but I'm down right now. I'm not okay and I'm very messed up. I wanted to cry and be relieved at that time. it's not like this who can't cry and feel tight in the chest.

@realitavshaluan