Still Learning the “How” of Everything

Life always seems so beautiful until that fateful day when it feels like things aren’t just going the way you want them to. No matter how hard you try to hold things together, it keeps falling apart. Life always throws us things that make us doubt ourselves and others. But in the face of these doubts, it is important to never give in to any of our doubts based on assumptions or else, we will only end up regretting our actions. This is where they say “don’t be quick to act”. A lot has been going on for me and the truth is, I have found myself in that place where I always hold myself back from doing so many things and I’ll always be grateful to God for that self control.

Always acting on impulse won’t do us any good. I have seen how that single act has broken so many beautiful things and people. It takes so much to be in a position where you know that action is the best bet but still choose to keep your head down. People will push us to our limits and not even care about it but the moment we act based on those things, we lose even more, why? Not because they are right but because we fail to accept the fact that they are only being humans at that moment. I mean, we can’t always know what is in the minds of people, we only make judgements based on what we see or hear.

On thing that doesn’t really come easily for is forgiving. I do forgive but I withdraw almost quickly. I’m scared of being hurt so many times and I just feel that even if I’ll forgive someone’s action, that shouldn’t make me foolish enough to still stick around with them and let them a second chance to do even worse to me. Well, this doesn’t mean I don’t give people second chances but it only happens in rare cases. For example, when my mummy offends me, no matter how huge of an offense I think it is, somehow I learn to forgive and that’s because she is someone I cherish so much. So, for a stranger or someone not so close to me, it’s going to be hard to just let some things slide.

I know that people will hurt me. Accepting it when it becomes a challenge. I try to fight it, hoping that those I hold so dear to me don’t hurt me or cause me any pains. But that has most times never been the case. Those who I care about mostly, are the ones who hurt me the most even. This is because they know me more and they still cause me pains by their words and even their actions. It is really hard to deal with it but I’m guessing that’s how life is. People will always be people but we have to be careful not to rush into action like them because as they say, “two wrongs don’t make a right”.

I’m still learning so much and one thing is certain, it is way easier to hear, listen than to practice. But it will only make more sense to us the things we say, when we put them to practice and that’s why we just have to keep learning the “HOW” of everything.

Thanks for reading.

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