The Negative impact I want to let go # Loh 287

What heavy feeling (guilt, resentment, or regret) are you carrying today that prevents you from enjoying your reality? What step are you willing to take to forgive yourself or forgive that situation?

I have said it before and I'm still saying it again, I never liked the way I turned out to be as a adult.It's something I regret and in a way have resentment towards alot of person's and my environment.

Every single day, I feel like I am not living the life I am supposed to be living. Please tell me why I feel like am still a child growing up to be a teenager, at some point I end up acting older than my age.

I regret not experiencing life as a child, even worse not experiencing it as a teenager. I regret not accepting the advances I had from my close male friends while in the university because I was feeling awkward and had the mentality of a child, forgetting I am grown.

I regret not going out with my friends as a teenager or experiencing a little bit of social life growing up, this has actually turned me to an over serious young lady in my late 20s.

I always think my life would have been alot different from what it is today because I believe I would have been married by now with kids even. Right now I think about it a lot to the extent of crying, too much regrets I say.

But what can I do now it's already 2026, and the world is still moving, it's definitely hard but I still try to shake my head off of that mindset when I am going deeper into my thinking mood.

I know the people that raised me and those around my environment had good intentions towards me, not realizing that it will affect me as an adult, I am too shy for my liking and I dislike it so much but most times, this has save me from a whole lot of trouble and for that I am still grateful.

I know my creator has perfect time for everything and myself is not an exception, I know I am going to achieve everything at the appointed time and so I don't fret.

Anyways ones in a while the thought "had I known" come into my mind but I try to distract myself with movies and words of encouragement online and my sister, who tells me to always make myself available and be more open to good people around me, for that I am extremely grateful.

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