Move on with... life?/Loh #235

The palpitation of the heart, cold sweats, and the heat from within. It is something no one can handle nor endure at its peak. Though life is filled with mysteries, there's one thing that we all agree is sure, and that's death.

Death is one thing, and the emotional pain it brings is another, and I, for one can say, I haven't found a way one can fully recover from grief or emotional turmoil.

Truthfully, we can forget for maybe weeks or days depending on how long we lost someone or saved from the deep battle of emotional pain we felt, but that doesn't mean all is truly forgotten. Deep inside, the scar still lies open, and the picture is still there. All we need is a moment alone or trigger, and we are back to our mourning self.

I know this because I have lost someone valuable to death. It stings and hurts deeply whenever I remember how long it has been and how cruel of me to have forgotten even for a second the name that I shouldn't... for the love of the world, ever forget.

Grief is a powerful weapon upon humans. It not only breaks us but shatters our inner self to tiny unrecognizable particles. When I lost someone very dear to me, I didn't cry at first. Not like crying would bring back the death, but my heart felt very heavy, and for some reason, I shivered uncontrollably, not from tears, that I know but maybe from some sort of regrets.

Though I won't push out the fact that having someone to talk do help, especially if the person knows who it was. It worked for me, I'd say...

Then, there's silence, which I enjoy. It helps calm me, and also, it's a sweet moment to be flooded with the memories of that person. Memories of how beautiful life was with them and with that, gratitude for how the person has managed to help me grow in a certain area of importance.

There's also taking a walk in a park, especially at night or sitting by the pavement at night to have a beautiful moment with the moon. I believe nature is a great healer and that the person I had lost is six feet under nature's embrace and that even as I write this, it brings a smile to my face.

Listening to music is another way that helps especially sad and very emotional music to help with the tears, and this time around, I don't stop the tears. I let them go very far before showering and off to bed.

Other things like crocheting and reading do help as well. But what I think really helped was the fact that I couldn't bring them back and that it was okay to continue living life, especially in a way they'd be proud of.

So, in line with Ladies of Hive prompt by @ifarmgirl with the question;

How do you recover from emotional pain or grief?

I'll say, "I don't really think people recover, we just... move on with life."

However, it matters what recovery means to you and I. If to you, recovery from grief means healing fully and living life in absence of the pain associated with the loss then, we are in a different tune because to me, if I'll say maybe, just maybe I have recovered then, recovery to me is that I have come to some sort of peace and acceptance with the reality of the loss. I am not immune to the pain of remembering. Instead, I have found strength and courage to keep moving on.

That's my theory... my belief, and you are welcome to share yours.

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Still yours truly,
Balikis.

Thanks for reading and listening.

Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.