It’s time to let love go

Hello family, its my first time posting here. Have u ever felt unseen, unheard and unloved? Well this my situation now. Some years back I fell in-love with someone and we dated for 5years, the first year was all rosy and sweet but as time goes by he’s love for me changed and it could tell from his attitude and actions towards me. Maybe he’s not in a good mood or maybe he doesn’t have money, so I would tell myself so as not to make a big deal out of it.

But one faithful day someone happened, we had a little misunderstanding and he asked me to leave his house and at the time we were on school break so I decided to spend the weekend with him so I went back to my house so on getting home I called him to let him know that I got home safely but he didn’t pick not only did he not pick but also left me unread for 3days there after he reached out to me and told me he didn’t mean what he said that he was just angry and that he didn’t have money at the time to take care of me the way he wanted to bla bla bla hence I believe him and forgave him, that was stupid of me right? Well I know.
We continued from were we stopped because why not we love each other however as time goes he made it an habit of telling me to leave his house when ever he’s upset but instead of me to walk away I started making excuses for me despite the fact that his actions were hurting me consequently I took it upon myself self to understand him so we don’t get fight all the time because it can be really exhausting.

Despite the fact that I ignored my feelings just to make him feel good made me feel like the perfect woman for him so he didn’t want to let me go but he also didn’t want to do anything that will make me stay, I was confused at this point but little did I know I was draining my emotions because I remember vividly how many times we broke up and made up because we were too afraid to start all over again.

Fast forward to this year he has been giving me signs that he wants to propose but I don’t know if am ready to marry him, as crazy as it may sounds but it’s actually the truth. In his words; come and stay with me for a bit so we’ll know how it feels to be a couple, Cohabitation? That’s what’s it’s called right?
So far so good it has been great with a little bit of misunderstanding here and there but lately I’ve been feeling unseen, unloved, unheard and ignored but not unwanted and am rethinking my decisions because no doubt we both love each love is never enough.
What do you think I should do?
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